So, I failed epically with the goals I set out for myself two weeks ago!
I managed to maintain one week of clean eating, and attended one whole bootcamp class. ONE WHOLE CLASS!! Then I got pretty sick, leaving me missing work for nearly 3 days and using up these last 2 weeks to get better.
You can safely say that I'm disappointed with myself. I don't know why I keep continuing on this cycle. Do I set up goals which are too big? Do I create the opportunity to fail? Am I unrealistic? Do I lack commitment to my goals?
You could probably say yes to all of the above.
I think some times I am more comfortable struggling. If I'm down already, there's not as far to fall later. Crappy thought yes, but it's been a running theme in my life for a number of years. I'd pull myself up out of various issues just to get dropped again. And it never gets easier.
But enough of that. I'm trying hard not to be so serious all the time.
Maybe if I post here more, with more of my successes and failures I could be more successful. Who knows. No one reads this blog besides my mom anyways ;)
